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Thursday, July 24, 2008

Missing... (Kangen)

Dinten niki, kula ningali blog ingkang dipuntulis ngagem basa jawa. Kula dados kangen bebasan. Hehehe... katah ingkang mboten kula elingi. Basa jawa niku wonten tigang macem: krama inggil, campuran, lan andhap asor. Menawi ditingali luwih khusus, basa jawa saged digolongaken dados 7, piturut tingkat kasopananipun lan piturut kagunaanipun. Sayangipun, kula mboten saged bebasan (ngangge basa alus) malih. Ingkang tesih kula elingi nggih bebasa ngoko (bebasa kasar) amarga sedinten-dinten, kula lan rencang-rencang ngangge basa niki.

Menawi mboten ngartos, basa alusan lan basa kasar niku saged ditingali saking kata-kata ingkang digunaaken.
Basa alusan (krama): Rama, panjenengan badhe tindak pundi?
Basa kasar (ngoko): Bapak, kowe arep lunga ngendi?

Basa alusan biasa digunaaken kaliyan bocah marang sesepuh, wong marang wong liya kang derajate luwih dhuwur, wong marang wong liya kang dipunkagumi, bawahan marang atasanipun.
Basa kasar biasa digunaaken kaliyan sesepuh marang bocah utawa wong kang luwih enom, guru marang muridipun, wong kang derajate dhuwur marang wong kang derajate luwih asor, atasan marang bawahan, lan wong marang rencange sedaya.

Piturut kula, sampun cekap kula bebasan nggih. Sakniki, kula badhe ngagem basa kasar, amarga kula luwih saged ngangge basa ngoko, supaya kula saged ngutaraken pikiranipun kula luwih becik.

Sebenere aku ora ngerti arep nulis apa. Bingung. Tapi, pengen wae nulis nganggo basa jawa meneh. Hehehe... Piye-piye, aku bangga karo basa jawa. Ana kanca kuliahku (wong palembang) sing ngomong: "Gue kalo denger orang ngomong bahasa jawa, masih mending lah daripada denger orang ngomong bahasa sunda. Apalagi kalo mereka keren, tapi ngomongnya bahasa sunda, berasa ga cocok aja gitu, jatoh pasarannya"
Hihihi, maaf buat orang sunda yah, sekedar pendapat pribadi dari temenku kok. Jangan dianggap serius.

Ngomong-ngomong soal kangen, aku kangen karo mak'e, karo pak'e, karo budhe lan pakdhe, tur yo kangen karo adhi-adhiku, kangen karo basa jawa, kangen karo kanca-kanca. Kangen lentog, kangen opor panggang, kangen lodeh tahu, kangen masakane budheku, kangen ponakanku sing ayu tur nggemesi.

Soal uripku, aku kepengen nglakokke macem-macem tapi yo ajeg, aku kekurung neng kene. Ra isa apa-apa. Isih akeh sing kudu tak lakoni sedurunge aku isa nglakokke sing tak pengeni. Nek tak itung-itung, kurang luwih yo aku kudu ngenteni 5 nganti 6 tahun meneh. Kesel si kesel, tapi yo piye meneh. Aku sakiki gek kelangan semangat, gek kueseeel jan ra karuan, bingung, kaya kelangan jeru banget tapi ra reti kelangan apa. Mulakno, aku kudu isa nganakke semangatku meneh, kudu mantepke ati kanggo nglakoni 6 tahun mengarep. Ora bakal gampang, apa meneh nek ndelok kondisiku sing saiki (Gusti Pangeran musti ngerti maksudku).

Aku pengen nangis yo rak iso, pengen gembar-gembor yo ra isa (isin). Pengen diemong tapi sing tak pengeni nggo ngemong ra teka-teka. Ya Allah Gustiiii... apa karepMu? apa karepku? Aku kangen tapi ora isa nyedhak. Aku malah terus mlayu saka sampeyan. aku kangen, kangen, kangen, kangen, kangen, kangen.... aku pengen nemokke sing bener, aku pengen ketemu. Masa'a njenengan mboten ngertos lan ngrasakaken... kula tresna marang njenengan.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Tagged by Kuai (2)

Well, another tag lol. There're works to do, so i'll make it fast.

Question 1:
What were you doing 5 years ago?
hemmm... first year in college i guess.

Question 2:
What were the 5 things on your to do list today?
1. Print some documents
2. Pay bills
3. Checking blogs, email, and other
4. Revised some reports
5. Continue reading a novel

Question 3:
What are the 5 snacks that you enjoy?
1. Potato chips
2. Kuaci (watermelon seed)
3. Mio Fullo (chocolate roll, you can search it in www.ot.co.id)
4. Brownies
5. Fried tempe

Question 4:
What are 5 things that you would do if you were a billionaire?
1. Build a library, a semi-private one
2. Build a house for my parents and help my bros and sis
3. Build and support a child care center
4. Visit other countries
5. Learn other languages and other subjects to reach my dream

Question 5: What are 5 jobs you've had?
exclude my current job? hmm okay:
1. a customer service in an isp
2. salesperson on a rental shop
3. freelance auditor in a factory
4. freelance tutor in a clay event day in an elementary school
5. baby sitter in my cousin's house

another tags? heh heh heh

Friday, July 18, 2008

Tagged by Kuai (1)

After so long didn't check this blog, kuai shouted me, she tagged me. Well.. here we go!

1. Where is your cellphone?
After i lost my cellphone some times ago, i don't have will to buy a new one. Maybe later. So,
here i am, without a cellphone. hihihi

2. Your significant other?
What does it means anyway? If it's about what i must come in handy, it must be book(s).
Novels, comics, anything i can read.
3. Your hair?
Not really sure bout the color... brown i guess.

4. Your Mother?
My mom's hair? uhm... pretty similar with me. but recently she color it into red.

5. Your Father?
Black.

6. Your favourite thing?
Thing? Ugh.. can't be things? Well... books! lol

7. Your dream last night?
Sleeping. Serious, i dream myself sleeping.

8. Your favourite drink?
Fresh water.

9. Your dream goal?
Being free and alive

10. The room you're in?
Well, my boarding house. Not big, not small. Just comfy me enough with sunshine, wind, and
books. lol

11. Your hobby? -
Reading books, sleeping or just laying in bed, sketching somethings (especially sentaro),
taking pictures, writing, listening to music.

13. Where do you want to be in 6 years?
Somewhere out there, helping children.

14. What you're not?
Being too feminine, wearing too much girl things is soooo not me.

15. Muffins?
Prefer toasted bread with butter and a cup of hot dark chocolate.

16. One of your wish list items?
Have more books in my rack.

17. Where you grew up?
Central Java

18. The last thing you did?
Writing down my memories with my lovely niece.

19. What are you wearing?
T-shirt and trousers.

20. Favourite gadget?
My pc and headset (can doing much things with that, including listening to music)

21. Your pets?
Have none.

22. Your computer?
PC

23. Your mood?
A bit tired, bored, and confuse.

24. Missing someone?
Yes!

25. Your car?
I don't drive.

26. Something you're not wearing?
Kinky things and gown (even a one piece)

27. Favourite store?
Book store and gift shop.

28. Like Someone?
Of course.

29. Your favourite colour?
Blue, light colors.

30. When is the last time you laugh?
A few minutes ago ;)

31. Last time you cried?
Hmm... not really sure. Two days ago?

well, don't know who might be tagged. so, i cut this tag here ^^;;
by the way, sorry for the other tag. I don't have 'sleeping pic(s)' to post, kuai :)

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Dream 1

Yesterday, i chit chat with friends via ym conference. We're talking about historical building: museum, jail, and story behind the jail. And last night, somehow, i got a dream, a weird one. And here's the dream:

I'm going to buy meal near hospital in my living area. I go with my brother. In the dream.. i was around 12 years old, i presume. My bro and i take the alternative road (way much nearer than to take the main road). Suddenly, a not-too-big black creature appears on the street and approaching me with it's beak opened. I try to stay calm and evade that creature but i fail. That creature bite me T_T not too hurt but still, it bite me. My bro and some villagers laughing me. My bro catch that creature, open it's beak, and told me to run away (he'll after me later).

I run directly to the hospital, just to find out that i'm lost in a new environment. There's an old-big-building and a playground near it. My bro managed to find me and we explore the area. We approaching that old-big-building and read the sign on it's wall: RIO DAGO HOSPITAL. Never heard a hospital in Dago area so my bro and me step inside the building.

A woman, a nurse i guess, half shouting us: "Why keep on the door? Come in" So my bro and i come in. Wow, a very 'ancient' building it is. And guess what! Those nurses... they aren't wearing a white uniform like it used to be. They wear chang-i dress (a shanghai dress)!

That's the end of my dream, leaving me with strange feeling. Well, just want to write it down :P

Story behind The Book of Abarat: Book 2

Seriously, i dare myself to read the second book after several days finish reading the first book. Well, at first part, there're no chicken (thank goodness for that). But guess what... there's flood attacks Chickentown and chickens spread out on the water T_T The great writer also put an image about it there. Guess he never think that there'll be his reader who got chicken phobia. Hahaha...

Well, what i'm trying to say here is not about those chicken anymore. But... i just wanna say, no matter how weird it will sound, oh yes, I fall in love with that Prince of Midnight; Christopher Clarion. Lol, laugh me, say i'm weirdo (i think myself a weirdo and i laugh myself too). Oh and his poem.. it's cool! Too bad i don't have the book here, right now. I'll quote it here another time.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Story behind The Book of Abarat: Book 1

Sun, April 13 2008

Finally, I finish reading the first book of Abarat. WOW!
After several great fights inside myself on deciding whether to stop or continue reading this novel, I managed to finish it until the last page.

Perhaps some of you are questioning about why I need to experience such fights only to finish reading a novel. Is it because of the book is boring? Or is it because the story is too unworthy to read? None of them. The only reason is… this novel has caused several nightmares to me. No kidding, I really affected by those nightmares more than I realized I would.

In some pages of the novel, there’re pictures of chickens. Yes! Chickens! I have some kind of chicken phobia (not only to chickens but to birds too, honestly) I don’t know since when.
These several years I’ve tried to press it to the lower limit. I’ve experience almost none nightmares about being attacked by chicken or bird or goose. Otherwise, I, several times, dreaming about myself having enough courage to fight back those chickens.

But I don’t know why, recently, the phobia is getting strong. Perhaps the intense “meeting” with chickens and my friends whom sometimes playing around with me with chickens makes my mental condition slope down to its lower level (if I can’t say to the lowest level). That is why, when I saw the picture of chickens in the first book of Abarat, I successfully haunted by nightmares with chickens as the villain! Sounds ridiculous, it is, but not for me.

At least, for me, I’ve managed to win the mental fight by continue reading the rest pages of the novel. It’s a great novel, truly it is. I’ll regret it for sure if I stop reading it just because of several nightmares.

Thou knowing that fact, when I start peeping what’s inside the second book of Abarat, I’m a bit terrified with the fact that the second book, again, still containing story about Chickentown! I assumed if Chickentown is talked in the second book, means the second book also containing picture of chickens! I do really really hope that I won’t get any nightmares for more. These chicken’s attacks already exhaust me for sure.

I’m tired reading a book with heartbeat, a bit handshaking, afraid of seeing a picture of chicken! Degradation on my phobia case but what can I do?! Guess I’ll have to start it all over to overcome my phobia.

Gosh, how many years do I’d need for that? Several years to put me on the previous level (before my mental state slopes down) and another several years more to cure it, I guess. (if no other obstacles arise). Meanwhile… can I still confide myself to keep trying overcoming my chicken phobia? *shrugs* *winks*

PS: mental state that I meant above doesn’t related to crazy or something, just mental exhaustion :)

Monday, March 3, 2008

What`s your personality?

What`s your personality?

Shy, Serious, and Secretive

You are the one who doesn't really talk that much. You have at least two different personalities, but you tend not to show at least one of them. You don't seem to be the type of person to laugh or smile a whole lot, but you do sometimes. although if anyone messes around with your friends or family, you are more like a guardian angel to them. You don't take anyone's crap and you don't back down to fight!